Reflections

It's now been just a few days over a year since we received Carson's diagnosis of Autism. At first we didn't know where to begin but we did know that we would do anything to help Carson. Looking back on the past year I have so many different emotions. A year ago I looked at my child and saw a lost little boy. A child who was so far away and locked in his own world. I was determined to unlock him and to reach him and to do anything I had to do to help him. A year ago I was filled with sadness, guilt, anger and worry. Today I am filled with happiness, acceptance and hope. I have learned that autism isn't a tragedy. Autism is part of who Carson is and it will always be apart of him but it does not define him. Carson is so much more than autism. Carson is a sweet little boy filled with so much energy and spunk. He is just like any other 3year old boy, he loves to play outside and he loves to dig in the dirt! The past year has taught me that there is so much hope for Carson. He has accomplished so much in just a year that it gives me so much hope for the years to come! Carson doesn't talk and there is a possibility that he never will. There is also a possibility that he will and I am filled with hope that one day I will be able to have a conversation with my son. We have had many challenges this past year and lots of tears. However between the challenges and the difficult days there have been some great days and tears of joy as Carson reaches a new goal. We are so proud of the progress he has made in just a year. He is slowly starting to unlock from his own world and join ours. Autism is a struggle but it's also a great blessing! Seeing the world through Carson's eyes is simply amazing!